Just a Valentine's Day with Double 14s

14 February 2014
Just a Valentine's Day with Double 14s

I don't have a special feeling for Valentine's Day (just call it VD for the sake of efficiency) actually. Been thru more than 10 relationships, this one is almost like a routine for me. However, I still have to show a happy blushy face in front of the partner to respect him. Not that I hate to do so, I am taking the action as a part of relationship maintenance system. A part of the protocol to keep everyone happy.

Truly, seeing someone else happy will make me happy too.

Talking about making people happy, sometimes it is not easy and may cause some complications. To me, this had brought me a lover whom I am going to marry because I owed him so much and another lover hopeful whom I am going to date because I could not afford to reject his eagerness to know me more.

I just simply cannot let those people down. Although I also know that a massive headache is waiting for me with a nasty grin. No matter how I am going to explain the reason of my action, no one is going to praise me (especially the two gentlemen) if they find out what I am doing.

I have to be smart enough to hide the fact from my fiance, and to be gentle enough to slowly drive the hopeful away, as his condition (a divorcee and 16 years older than me and the fact that I am going to marry very very soon...goodness sake...). I have to be very vigilant online and offline, check my Facebook account privacy, my phone in silent mode and body language as normal as possible in front of everyone.

My good friend said that I like to be in difficult position in love life. Maybe he was right. I like the attention and happy if someone wants to be closer.

I thought I can stop this..habit when I finally find someone good enough to marry. But apparently not.

Let's see how I can solve this situation.

I do hope all will be OKAY...(cross my fingers and go to sleep)